And when I looked behind...

With smile on lips and prayer in the heart,
I look behind me at the life's chosen  paths.
With no remorse nor regret but only queer interest for the choices made
A wonder of what it would have been had the choices been different
Would it lead me to the same point as today or a different one altogether
A little voice says, what was done was done as the wisest thing then.
Any foolishness only had you wizened
Look not behind but at the roads that lay ahead vast
Lessons and memories are to be remembered from the days that passed.
Forget not that its been your choice all along
Every fight must be fought alone
With twinkle in the eyes and strength of mind,
I take my next step knowing no one to be by my side.

Unhealed Wounds

And just when the wound seems to have healed, somebody would invariably prick it. All the time and effort put in to healing lay wasted, such mayhem triggered by a small action or a small conversation. Whoever said that time heals the greatest of the wounds? Whoever suggested that one should move on, has never told how to. How could one, when they are stuck in the past? How could they, when they were, in fact, cruelly crushed into a million pieces, each thrown in a different direction? How could they possibly move on when every living moment they are burdened with the memories of the best they had, living knowing too well that those times can never be re-lived, that eternal damnation is what they are destined to. How could they move on with something as unforgiving as  a heartburn...And everytime they attempt such a fallacy, it only takes a tiny action or a familiar word to bring back the flood of memories which inundates them in the ocean of pain from which there is no escape. 

That one Moment!

Sometimes, there comes a phase in life which probably wouldn't last long..But which demands your complete attention demands you to stop everything you are doing, however important. And you have no other option but oblige! you are pushed into a trance wherein you just stare.. being a silent spectator to the world around you. No action is demanded of you and you do none. Just watch ..like stare at the stars.. admire the ants.. and then, like a bolt out of blue, you realise you have been contemplating.... and you are mighty happy for the simple fact that you are alive; proud of what you are, of your achievements. Also , it is that moment when you have the crystal clear thought of what you would want to do with the wonderful life of yours.. what is it that you have been unknowingly seeking :) An eye opener.. a decision making moment.. a thanksgiving moment!!!

And as an honor to that moment, I thank all the wonderful people in my life.. who had been there during not so good times, bearing with all my cribbings, slapping me (though not literally) to bring me back to my senses when I had lost them :) Thanku ..love u guys a bunch!!! :D :D
Well, on second thoughts, Im also thankful to those who made life tougher for me, for I evolved as a better person :) :P

Signing Off
Loads of Love
-Sue!


Another one of those Older posts that I had not published ....



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